Nikki Santana is a Native American who was born and raised in sunny Los Angeles California. It was nearly 17 years ago I made an adult decision to enter into the Sex Industry for no other reason than to sell sex and make money. There appears to be many misconceptions from online biographies other people have written who “do not” personally know me or anything about me. They have stolen text and photos from many other sources with misleading information. However I am the sole owner and the only person who is controlling any information and content you will be viewing on this new blog. So let me just say this is a small part of who I was and what I choose to do for work, in addition to my personal views of the adult business and what it portrays.

I entered into the Adult Industry appearing in pornographic film I was around 29 years old. I was much older then most young girls who come in at 18, right out of high school. Over the years I realized it was a mistake to have taken work from such a corrupt, dirty business and leaving myself with a scared reputation, yet I have no regrets. Everyone has choices to make whether right or wrong and these choices are we must live by for the remaining of our lives. Some people say the choices we make define our true character. Maybe it does, however I don’t entirely agree, but if it does then most of us are guilty, especially for those who work in certain areas such as government. Everyday in the real world people are forced and choose to make choices and yet never give it a second thought of the hundreds of people that it effects. Those areas are within politics, law enforcement, religious countries that live with violence, lack of job opportunities because of racial profiling and corporations that commit white collar crime. So for a woman to make a choice to work as sex worker or adult actress the only life that is being effected is the person who made the decision. It may not be a career choice of moral code to society but it was my choice and I will live with that.

I believe I was about 25 years old when I started working in downtown clubs. Back then it wasn’t stripping it was Taxi Dancing. Oddly enough these clubs were very popular in the district area of Los Angeles and still are today. I came across a woman who lived in the Valley she ran an escort business for 15 years named “Executive Referral”. Interesting enough being young one might have thought someone influenced me to make such a choice. No one did it was a choice I made on my own. Carol was a decent person but unfortunately for Carol her luck ran out. She had been busted several times over the years. Her clients were decent people and payed well believe it or not and I was lucky not to experience any problems with them. The only problem I crossed was when I met Camille she was another girl at the club I developed a friendship with, she was much older then myself and bit of flake. I wasn’t sure what carpet ride she was on but our friendship ended when she betrayed me with Carol. As I naturally thought Camille was already a hooker from the way she behaved at the club with customers I found out different. When Camille mentioned her choices were bleak and decided to leave the club scene I introduced her to Carol at the time.

That first night was a thrill. Carol kept us busy with calls all over Los Angeles. Camille and I went out and scored all night long, by the end of the night she was crying her eyes out and asked if I would give her a hug, when I asked her why? She told me she was no hooker and I told her stop crying, you are now. I was baffled I guess her act at the club was just that. Time passed and one day this two headed snake decides to betray me, why I am not sure, it no longer mattered because that person had more pills than a pharmacist. She was never in her right mind most of the day. Once I talked it over with Carol and she realized the truth I had soon taken over just about every customer she had in her black book and Camille was out. Carol was older and burned out with whole business she expressed she was selling her contacts and getting out. I was glad, it was more for me and Camille was gone. God only knows what happen to that dumb bitch. However I didn’t I give a fuck, I had my own agenda. I’ve always been resilient that way I guess.

This went on for sometime working this business outside of my regular full time job. Until I met a young woman from Orange County named Kayla she was sweet like the girl next door, no kids and married. She ran her business successfully out of her home. Everything started off good with Kayla she was the most honest person next to my tax accountant I’ve ever known. As they saying goes sooner or later everything changes and frankly I had grown sick of dealing with bullshit from the low life customers she was servicing. I finally decide to leave on my own, which for me was a good idea at the time. Unfortunately for Kayla her business hit the fan when the Sheriffs raided her home, it was fucked up. I felt really bad for her but it had nothing to do with me. One of her girls got the shaft and split to another state before anything could happen to her, she sold Kayla out in addition to one of Kayla’s asshole customers who shot his mouth off one to many times. The heat was a little to close to me and I was working at Edison Corporation at the time, so the attention I didn’t need. Kayla was very lucky her attorney got all charges dropped the police had no witness’s including the dumb ass “jon” who couldn’t get his fucken story straight. He was trying to hard to be the star of the show. Unfortunately Kayla’s life was turned upside down since the neighbors knew what happened they came down hard on her and her husband harassing them. She decide to relocate since people don’t forget.

Kayla’s last words to me as I remember was the internet was growing big for this kind of business. She was right I just didn’t have any knowledge of how big at the time until I saw the advertising in the OC and LA weekly papers of girls on the net. I soon pursued down the yellow brick road to find out companies such as LA Ladies, CityVibe, ThatMall, and soon to be Ero’s Guide not to mention the many hundred other advertising internet companies coming up. These business were big, big, big. It was the yellow pages for working girls.

One day I decide to go sign up like if I were a Yankee with a new contract. Wouldn’t you know it right off, I have the opportunity of meeting a scumbag asshole named David running LA Ladies which doesn’t exist anymore. David and his wife started the business only to lose it, because of his low ethics of thinking he can fuck every female walking in the office. It all blew up in his fat face, which I felt good about. Before it all went to shits I advertised successfully for a full year and made so much money it was fucken amazing the number of calls a person gets, anyone could easily make $5000 a day without breaking back. It paid better than being a lawyer. My only downfall was I didn’t have knowledge of technology or web design at the time. If I had my enterprise would have taken a different turn. I guess if your going to be a hooker use your smarts and work like these women have Amy Taylor and Ivanna Di Carlo these ladies used their marketing skills and created memberships websites, which is smart allowing your customer base to run their credit cards to pay for services online, which in turn is a safer method to view their personal information confirming the customer is legit and not law enforcement. I know this much law enforcement will go to extreme’s to bust girls. I know many of their tricks. As I know of le won’t run credit cards to entrap somebody. They generally go after the easier bait off of Craigslist, Backpage and online ads.

I should know from personal experience, however short or long live as they say, nothing ever lasts and everything must come to an end. Over all I had a long run in this business but it came to an end when I had personal encounter with Orange County Police. I won’t get into the details of what happened, let’s just say it wasn’t pretty. I will say this I agree with Pamela Peaks as she once told me. It’s good if you do come encounter with the police so you know what your dealing with after the experience. After this experience I soon made a quick decision to work in the Adult Business that was legal and nobody could tell me anything. That was the day Nikki Santana was born.

A few months before my incident with the police I had left Edison, the job was great but the people were seriously fucked up, most of which are contractors not employees. I left due to the fact of those corporate assholes in security who were constantly harassing me because I refused to be controlled especially by a man. During these last few years I was dating someone in my personal life and he introduced me to someone he knew in downtown so I then changed jobs. During this time before I left industry was right at the turning point when LA Ladies was taken over by someone else after David’s departure. (LA Ladies closed soon after) I worked for an Armenian family first then some crazy fucken Jew named Keith Weinstein, both were low paying jobs however I had taken all I was going to deal with from male assholes that dictated women in their jobs. Keith had pushed the envelope when he betrayed me and at that point I refused to tolerate anymore bullshit.

Just to give you an idea of what kind of person I was dealing with this man stood over 6′2 he was a big fucker, white male, looked like a lost flower child from the 1970’s and dressed like one. He was self made millionaire. Keith made sauder and sold platinum and gold different items that are used when manufacturing gold jewelry. He lacked social skills but had the mind of a chemist. Every morning he came to work at 10am drank some vodka took a shot of coke. All day long he entertained himself with porn from his lab top looking out the window to the district and left at 3pm, 5 days a week. Impressive don’t ya think? This was my employer. He pushed the envelope when he found my ad on LA Ladies (before it shut down) and decide to tell the world. In addition to telling his cock sucking accountant Micheal who was another Jew. I was like the devil before him and enraged with anger. Keith was a big man but also a pussy he especially had no balls to stand up to me. I left quietly but I had my revenge and showed everyone the dirt I had on him. He was one of many dishonest people I knew. He stole from others in the district every chance he got even his own customers. His business took a major nose dive soon after that.

After all that drama I just hung back for awhile. I wasn’t about to go work for another cock sucker. One day as I was browsing the paper I came upon an ad from “Reb’s Pretty Girls” it was agency for adult modeling. Reb was no agent but something else entirely. A man with no taste or moral ethics and in this business they come by the dozens. Reb was a real person and a complete scum bag. He is the typical male in that business that will take advantage of any women who walks in his office alone. I have to admit I was so impressed with his office as it had a “dump decor” appeal to it. Let me not forget his rap sheet a mile long hanging copies on the office wall of how many times he was arrested. After an hour of bullshit and sexual assault Reb provided me with some work from an old fart name Bob in Pomona.

Bob was harmless. He had his own studio, sold nude shots but taste full. I actually enjoyed working for Bob it was easy, he paid well and hassle free. So I was exposed to an environment of paranas and sharks but I learned very fast. It was a game of people fucking you in the back, jealousies, drug problems and drama of every kind. There was nothing of this business that was good. Keep in mind this business buys soles of every kind devours the weak and humble, uses young women who can’t defend themselves and a business that will never truly respect who you are. Let’s not forget society. In the real world no one will respect you for this kind of work I don’t care who you are or how good you look. Especially if your a woman. Of course the double standard applies differently for men everyone pats them on the back. Is this a poor example of male camaraderie or what?

As time progressed I realized the few lousy agents in the business were not going to help me. So I had to be persistent to know everyone I could and to bang on every door looking for work if I expected to survive. Of course not all my sales calls were successful because in this business there is much discrimination if your not white and very thin. You can get away with being older because of the movie lines. There are many lines of every kind but it’s knowing producers and directors and building relationships which is not easy, because the Jews run the business and the male directors are just as flaky and unreliable as the women who act in these adult movies. People are very disrespectful, inconsiderate and they will talk shit even if your nice to them. There is no such thing as “royalties” in this business. If some scumbag tries to feed that line, he is a fucken liar. Yet so are the actress’s, it’s amazing how every girl say’s she has done 200 to 300 films, yeah right, if that were only true, most of them wouldn’t need to be hookers. I only did approximately close to 50 different projects from film to magazine and internet over a five year period. I find it interesting now I see my old stuff everywhere and at first I never saw it anywhere. Looking back, I know now I never belonged working in this industry in the first place. Yet I have no regrets of the choices I made in my life. I made this decision, because I was a “free agent” and could call the shots, in addition to making money was the key. Men can’t sell sex the way a woman can. The only reason men work in this industry is because men are generally are perverted in nature not to mention the “free pussy” they hope to score regularly, something they couldn’t do in their everyday lives gives such an advantage.

Thinking back when I worked in the downtown gentlemen clubs I realized hustling and hooking has always existed and always will. This is an area women will always find employment if needed, at least while your young. The reality is many women enjoy working in this business, then dealing with men in a traditional sense. For many it’s more sensible then sitting behind a desk at a minimum wage job. Working that club was a total waste of time but I learned to be a serious “HUSLTER”. Originally it’s where I began my life as a working girl, internet was barely born, there were no cell phones or CNN like today. To my knowledge I was the only Nikki around that neck of the woods, until others jumped the train. Fast forward more than 15 years later, look how the sex industry has blown up and being a “provider or escort” is practically a necessity. No matter what some one tells you, there isn’t a PORN GIRL in this sleazy business who isn’t selling her ass on the side, outside of striping. She would need to, to survive. Being a high scale hooker is where the real money is, for however short or long lived. If you don’t believe me just look at the escort ads or better yet take a closer look at woman today and what they have become. These days it’s not about being a mother married with kids and for those who tried it, it didn’t last to long in their personal lives, people have changed. Women, women are not conformed to the traditional roles of homemaker anymore. If they don’t marry for money, their definitely selling it.

As strange as it may seem to others. I didn’t mind this kind of work. It was just like dating in my mind, but better, you left with a phat tip and didn’t need to put up with the bullshit and head games people play in real life. I have been there done that more than once and all you end up with is big fucken headache!!! No matter what kind of work you do or people you cross, there is always an amount of bullshit and people’s problems you have to listen to or it’s being dumped on you. It’s to much, in the adult biz it’s the same fucken way, but when your hooker it’s a little different, your mind is set to think different. I strongly believe because of the money it’s easy for women to disconnect their emotions. It’s interesting how people judge, but is really any different than women who marry for money or the basic female who hunts even for the working class guy to secure her future? let’s not forget young girls who seek out men and date those who have money? Many women are guilty of this.

I’ve have met many men who admitted the same thing about their bullshit model wives and girlfriends they brag about who are guilty of the same crime after leaving them high and dry and screwing them financially. These women many not be fishing in the same lakes and streams but their fishing just the same for a life time financial set up.The only person to blame is the man who falls for it, being a dump ass for raising the bar to high. So that’s all I have to say, if you men prefer to keep it real and not get fucked over, then hire a hooker at least everyone knows where they stand. Or if your moral code bothers you then learn to date women who less attractive and have a good heart. Otherwise you must realize your not going to get what you want in the way you want it, with the person you want it with unless you pay the price. I don’t mean to get off track but this is the end result of many fake relationships when people judge solely on looks instead of the value of ones character. Why I speak about this because it all ties into people I have dealt with professionally and personally. Just you men remember, men lie a lot, but women are better liars:-)

As I expressed my reasons for working in a dirty business such as this I do take responsibility for it and as odd as it sounds only a few times it was a blast and only a few people were nice to me that were worth knowing. Let me be clear it is a business that has no respect for women and degrades them only to be viewed as objects not humans who posses a brain or feelings. My views of the adult business are harsh I know but truthful. Men in the industry are actually weak and some are abusive. Some are just pathetic assholes. Check out this moron Mike South once made a comment which was removed from LukeFord.com after I attack him about it. He said that people who worked in the industry were only there because they couldn’t make it in the real world. My remarks to Mike South were, don’t you view yourself in the same perception? Look at this …. this is a face only a mother could love. Mike South yeah what a guy right straight out of the trailer park. I don’t know why he so discriminating with certain women. I don’t see any women banging on his door ready to suck his cock unless he pays them to.

Dominating males how they prey on the weak and humble who are in need of their help hoping these women will climb to the top faster. It’s rare it happens if a women is very successful and in control of her career. I haven’t seen one yet. Jenna Jameson has come close. She has been successful true, but never fully controlled her own career. It’s the men she relied on who made her what she is today regardless of how creative her bullshit is to glamorize the business. Yet those men who find girlfriends and wives to use for financial support is only the start, so many end up with drug problems health issues and torn families. These men are the lowest of the low. Never be fooled just because something or someone looks good. Take a look at this prick he is the biggest pimp in the industry he owns and runs L.A Direct Models. Mr. Ben English he not only works the girls as an agent he pimps n panders them out to clients world wide from what I have learned from my reliable news source. He has been doing this for years. I so hope he gets his ass busted by the feds. Ben English or should I say Derrick it’s time you take a vacation in county!

People have asked me what kind of money girls make to do one film. It’s not much and in fact it’s rather insulting considering the nature of the work. Top girls might make $1000 a film $1200 tops no more than that, generally most women will make $500 for a boy/girl, scene the same as most hookers with their clients. However other kind of women who are not as attractive will make as low as $300 a film doing the same kind of dirty ass fucking work, most of the time without using a condom. (However it is mandatory to be HIV tested, which includes STD’s except for Herpes) Aim HealthCare won’t test for this only because most of the people in the biz have herpes. Ironic isn’t it? The work I am describing it straight Gonzo work simple projects such as BJ’s or solo work usually run between $250 to $300 depending on who your working for. Some sleazy directors are cheap compared to others. Overall it’s not worth tearing up your body with other people fluids and saliva. Once the women is older she will feel the repercussion of her life physically and mentally when she leaves the business. You will find your body and mind not cooperating as you get older and not everyone takes care of themself. It can bring a women down emotionally and physically also determining how you live your life. Everyone goes thru stages in their life like that isn’t hard enough in addition to the nature of this work one starts to question your own self worth. A person can find themselves falling easily into depression. A great deal of damage is placed on women then men in this business.

At one point in my life I slightly started to feel the same and I had to stand back and take a look at myself. Naturally I am strong women mentally and emotionally. I am to self reliant to be torn down. So after 5 years of crap I decide to leave and was glad I did. I didn’t care I wasn’t important or famous. I have much more to offer in life and I love myself far to much. I know myself well enough that when you don’t belong somewhere it’s best to move on. I am an educated person, more importantly self reliant. I wasn’t about to let any man or anybody tear me down in that dirty business. Even in the hardest time I can bounce back, unlike many people who can’t because they lose them self along the way.

We as Americans live in a society where the entertainment is highly regarded, whether it’s porn, music or the mainstream movie business. People are measured by success, money and status. Not character, not integrity or individuality. I guess to some those are draw backs. It’s sad what has become of American society today, what has become of people. Too many people enjoy viewing and purchasing pornography, the majority of those people are men. Pornography has lead to more violence and destruction among people in society, it’s brought more internet crime, then any other business. Who fucken cares what the dollar figure is, it doesn’t equal for those who sacrificed them self in it. There is nothing positive about the adult industry nor is there anything respectful for those who work in it.

Looking back I realize my choices should have been different, but I won’t dwell on what can’t be changed. My past is just that and I have no regrets about it. Regardless of what people attitudes are I really don’t care about their views. In this world every person will be judged according to how they lived. I love myself to much to concern myself with the ignorance of society. I am person of strength yet I have ethics. I am 42 now, raised my family alone. My past maybe tainted but my future is optimistic and prosperous. I’ve worked very hard to reestablish my reputation in the real world and I still have to work at everyday. This is something that is not easy at all, but not impossible. It takes strength and courage, nearly all people never go back or forward to reestablish a real career for themselves or instill education. I have no doubt I will accomplish my goals I have set out. So after all this you maybe wondering, why do I have this blog pertaining to adult material? Good Question.

I guess the only thing I can is the “SHE DEVIL” in me, still lingers within:-)

Nikki Santana